I wish I could pin it down
the moment, I mean
The moment when I determined that it was worth it.
The exact second when I resolved
that I was more important than you.
And all that had come before
our history...our bond...forsaken for her.
forsaken for glimpses of fleeting passion.
betrayed behind trusted eyes and sacred vows.
When did our love become so small?
so insignificant that deceit took it's place
and locked you out.
Betrayer, corrupter ...that serpent at my ear
that ferocious flaw that withers good and bleeds the heart
that blink of conscience that cleans the lie and sets me free.
Free to taste temptation, absolved of all consequence
save the demon that remains
In my restless wanting, I lost myself and you.
the moment, I mean
The moment when I determined that it was worth it.
The exact second when I resolved
that I was more important than you.
And all that had come before
our history...our bond...forsaken for her.
forsaken for glimpses of fleeting passion.
betrayed behind trusted eyes and sacred vows.
When did our love become so small?
so insignificant that deceit took it's place
and locked you out.
Betrayer, corrupter ...that serpent at my ear
that ferocious flaw that withers good and bleeds the heart
that blink of conscience that cleans the lie and sets me free.
Free to taste temptation, absolved of all consequence
save the demon that remains
In my restless wanting, I lost myself and you.
This makes me feel very sad Rick. I know exactly what and whom you are talking about. Never forget that there are thousands of other "Soul Mates" walking this planet for us. Now, if those Soul Mates would just read the One Page ads I've been running in Lagniappe, things will start shaping up. Hope my little funnism cheers you up here at the end. Hugz brother.
ReplyDeleteI like to apply the old quote from Dickens GREAT EXPECTATIONS to myself when I feel betrayed "...the worst deceivers are those self deceivers...." For some reason, I tell myself I should have seen it coming....I pretended not to see it for what it was....sigh.
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