Betrayer

I wish I could pin it down
the moment, I mean
The moment when I determined that it was worth it.
The exact second when I resolved
that I was more important than you.
And all that had come before

our history...our bond...forsaken for her.
forsaken for glimpses of fleeting passion.
betrayed behind trusted eyes and sacred vows.
When did our love become so small?
so insignificant that deceit took it's place
and locked you out.

Betrayer, corrupter ...that serpent at my ear
that ferocious flaw that withers good and bleeds the heart
that blink of conscience that cleans the lie and sets me free.
Free to taste temptation, absolved of all consequence
save the demon that remains
In my restless wanting, I lost myself and you.